Zeno gasped upon seeing Zelta coming through the door and his eyes widened in soundless horror realizing the flesh colored house robe was gone.
Instead she wore a perky white woven gown adorned with floral lace and tiny shell buttons and cut into a full sweep above her breast. Her small mouth was shaped with red lipstick and soft earth shadow and rouge painted her chalky complexion giving her cheeks an unnatural glow. Her snow-white hair was parted in the middle and brushed down precisely into a curl.
It was raining, but Zeno didn’t hear it anymore watching Zelta with a glass jar of milkshake in one shaky hand, the other a bag of M&Ms, and Thamus, the short-hair black cat Zelta called Blackey, in tow.
Abel would be horrified to see her less melancholy upon his return from Charleston, Zeno thought to himself and covered his mouth to hide his giggles.
She placed the glass on the side table and sat down in the armchair with the M&Ms secured in her lap. "Where is Rosa?" she said looking anxiously around the room; then at Zeno.
"Rosa won't be in until the afternoon,” he replied kindly, then added, “she has a doctor’s appointment that’s why she’s late.”
"I hope she'll be all right.”
"She’ll be fine I’m sure. How are you, Mrs. Erikson?"
“I am well,” she said sharply clutching the glass and lifting it to her mouth slurping milkshake through a straw. It was a good one. Delicious. Tasty. One hundred percent better than the ones Ahab used to make. This one had real strawberry flavor. Not too many egg yolks she hated tasting in the cream. The young fellow noticed her, and she smiled returning the glass to the table, raising her chin and clasping her hands over the bag of candy.
Hearing the crinkle of plastic Thamus meowed and scooted out from underneath the chair swinging its tail back and forth, looking up at Zelta, abruptly over at Zeno; then back at Zelta with wide eyes and an elevated meow. For Zeno Thamus’ meows were like a broken record. He stopped working, rubbed his forehead with his fingertips and stared at the cat furiously.
“What is it Blackey?” Zelta said in a baby tone as if she was speaking to a baby with one hand held out to Thamus. “You want my candies, don’t you. [Meow] Is that what you want? [Meeow] Kitty, kitty. [Meooow] My baby. My pretty black puddycat. [Meeeoow] Well, you can’t have mommie’s candies. [Meeeeeooow] Candies are for mommie. Maybe for the young fellow, too, if he should to ask. [Zeno rolled his eyes] But no no no, this is mommie’s food. Don’t you understand?”
Looking toward the door Thamus caught sight of Selene, the white fluffy cat, Zelta called Blondie, and Thamus with a bush erect tail hissed at Selene. A startled Zelta leaned up, too late to stop Thamus from bolting for the door and chasing Selene down the hall.
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"Would you like a drink?"
“A little bit.”
"I ran up the hill."
"From Castro Street?”
"Yes," the boy said sitting in the armchair closest to the fireplace and crossing his legs.
“Why didn’t you drive?”
“I didn’t feel like it.”
"Running uphill? That's a good reason to be out of breath.”
“Was it up to 17th to Twin Peaks or up Corbett directly to Pemberton steps?"
“I prefer Corbett to Pemberton steps the way I always come.”
Abel looked down at his crotch, the thing swelled sideways. “You know,” he grinned, “I miss you terribly when you’re not here."
"Even when I'm painting in the Green Cottage?"
"But of course, even then.”
"I started a new portrait.”
“Do I know him?”
“No, I don’t think so."
“Where did you meet?”
“Under that bridge?”
“No, it was at the top of the hill at 19th Street," the boy said studying red embers in the fireplace; then looking back at Abel flashed a silly smirk.
“Oh, the gay beach?”
“If that’s what they call it.”
“Was he blond?”
The boy swallowed and, sweating, wiped his forehead. “He had dirty blond hair.”
“Yeah, he was ok.” The boy shook his head and got up quickly. He went over to the fireplace, snatched the poker and stirred embers watching the fire revive.
"Was it a nude portrait?" Abel raised one curious eyebrow.
"Just his face," the boy closed his eyes, his lips trembling when he murmured, “Nothing more.”
“Was he paid for this sitting?”
“He wanted a burrito.”
“Oh, I see.”
“Nothing more than that.”
"Steak, chicken or burrito de cerdo?"
"It was a fat steak burrito with extra meat,” he said squeezing the poker in his hand and opening his eyes in soundless horror. "I forget the name of the place because I can’t pronounce it in Spanish. It’s on Valencia Street near 16th. You took me there Halloween night before you introduced me to Castro."
“And you danced and got drunk and danced and danced with a guerrilla in the Pendulum.”
“Yes,” the boy remembered and smiled, “but I wasn't drunk and everybody, not just me, danced and danced with that guerrilla who was sexy, exciting.”
“Well, I didn’t. I supposed I was the only one sober enough not to."
“Are you drinking again?” the boy said noticing Abel’s club soda.
“No, I am not drinking again,” Abel sipped his club soda and put it back down on the table. “Oh, that restaurant you can’t pronounce is Puerto Alegre. Can you pronounce it now?"
"Yes,” the boy rolled his eyes. “Puer-to A-legre.”
"Bravo!" Abel cried clapping his hands so loud the noise popped the boy’s eardrums.
"Abel.” The boy looked anxiously around the room. “Isn’t Mrs. Erikson sleeping?"
"Mrs. Erikson?" Abel said, his right hand clenched into a fist. "I don't give a goddamn if my excitement rouses that woman. If Zelta fell down a flight of stairs tonight and broke her silly neck I would not shed a tear."
"I'm sorry that Mrs. Erikson has hurt you,” the boy said putting the poker back into place; then came back to his seat. “I hope someday you'll be able to tell me why you dislike her so. I promise I'll listen."
This pleased Abel wholeheartedly. He grinned, chin up and was content his boy had a compassionate heart and wasn't always so selfish. That raging beast that had overwhelmed him with unseemly thoughts of his mother faded. "What is done is done," he said calmly. "I'm simply happy that you care. But let's not talk about Zelta. I much prefer to hold you in my arms and kiss you."
The boy crossed his legs and looked down at his manicured fingernails with trepidation; they were neat and trimmed just the way Abel preferred. It was the tip of them he suddenly recalled exploring another person. He shook his head, then looked at Abel waiting on the sofa like a supreme authority. He took a deep breath and got up. On tiptoes, he went over to him like an obedient puppy and gave him a reluctant smooch as cold as ice.
Abel was unhappy by this worthless kiss. He pulled the boy down between his legs and drew his mouth to his. "I do love you, Zeno Dexter Elliot," he said, "and tonight you can rest assured I won't lecture you on the importance of fidelity. You're home. However, I must demand that you take extreme caution when you're out and about. According to the media, an incurable virus as ugly as Santa Ana winds is spreading in the worst unimaginable way among sexually active men."
"Who said I had sex?" Zeno climbed up. "I swear I was in the Green Cottage working all day."
"It's not wise to swear, my boy, especially when you choose to utter an untruth. Do you think for one minute I believe this ludicrous story of your meeting a trick in Dolores Park and painting him not nude?"
"I was there in the studio. That much is not an untruth."
"I'm unconcerned if you spent the day in the studio, Dolores Park or under a windmill in Golden Gate Park with your hands on your hips. I’m simply suggesting you’re careful when you’re out and about and among foolish men who could very well be carriers of this mad Red virus.”
Zeno hated it when he sounded this way. So goddamn fatherly, so goddamn right about everything. Always blabbing something with his "big know it all mouth". He pushed his hands in his pockets and strutted over to the window and stared at houses clinging down the hillside with their lights shimmering like romantic candlelight. The fog had dissipated, and, in the distance, the lights of Oakland and Berkeley hills stretched beyond the top of San Francisco’s illuminated skyscrapers cluttered at the edge of the bay. He wished he was there in the cold on a dock by the bay, away from here and all Abel's questions and unsolicited advice.
He swung around abruptly glaring at Abel with blazing eyes. In three years, he still had his manly good looks, but his brunette hair had turned salt-and-pepper. Thinner and thinner atop his pasty weathered head.
"I want my darling boy beside me where he belongs," Abel motioned him to a spot on the sofa. "I have a surprise."
He held his tongue, said nothing at all and rejoined his lover on the sofa without even a whimper.
"Do you still love me?” Abel demanded. “Your man? Your teacher? Your lover as I am?"
"Of course, all those things, just as you’ve said."
"Then look me in the eye, Zeno, and tell me that distinctly."
Zeno opened his mouth, but no words came. He thought about the studio he called Green Cottage, the house up Pemberton steps and "I love you, sir" finally spilled out.
Abel squeezed him in his arms. "Thank the Lord, baby, you said you love me," he exclaimed. "That is most important to my heart."
"I'm glad you brought me here..."
"Always remember it was I who made this entire journey to San Francisco a reality."
Zeno leaned his head against Abel’s chest and felt safe, secure so close to daddy. Nothing more than that. He took a deep breath, smiled and wrapped his arms around Abel's slender waist. He was happy and closed his eyes.
"I am the best thing that's ever happened to you," said Abel stroking the boy's kinky black hair. "We will never hurt each other or stop sleeping together because we are a permanent couple. I told my therapist today I felt I was ready to make love to you. Guess what? (An abrupt laugh) Just before you came home tonight I was aroused. It's true! I am ready to make love to you. That's my surprise. Reach down right now, my boy! Reach down and feel what is..."
But he stopped after hearing Zeno snoring with a sudden gargling and squawking against his chest and a terrifying pause like he’d just run into the devil in his worst nightmare.
* * *
About three miles southeast of Pemberton steps Travis Weatherford, a blond with stormy Nordic good looks and green eyes, snorted the last line of cocaine from a mirror in his Bernal Height’s flat on Mirabel Street. The feeling was dazzling, soothing. Things looked clearer now, and he was pleased listening to piano solo and gazing into a fire burning in the hearth with the smell of wet burning wood enhancing his euphoria.
Later he added another log and settled back with thoughts of a painter he’d met in Macombe Alley when the telephone rang disrupting his thoughts. He leaned lazily over, picked up hoping it was already the painter. Instead, it was Tyrone Belin...
"Tyrone," Travis said into the receiver with a slight Texan drawl.
"Yassar, Clarence's brother.”
"Why hello, Tyrone," he tried sounding cheerful and swallowed a dry lump in his throat. "Where is Clarence?"
"Dat's why I is callin', sar."
"What's wrong?" Goosebumps spread over his skin, little blond hairs stood up on back of his neck. He sank deeper into the chair feeling a chill down his spine. "Where is Clarence?” he said.
"He was here, sar."
"Then he's finally come back to his senses and on his way back to San Francisco?"
"No sar. Clarence. He gone away..."
"I don't understand." A pain in his chest. This feeling of foreboding doom agonizing him so. He pulled his fingers through his hair.
"My brother is dead."
"What do you mean dead? Who the fuck are you?”
“Clarence’s brother like I say.”
“You’re telling me he’s dead? Dead? Just like that. Dead.”
"We's done buried he dis past Friday. Momma says ya oughta be tolds."
"So you're just now telling me about this after burying him a week ago?"
"Sar, we's real upset down here, too. It happens so quick. Nobodies knows how sick he is when he comes down. He gots so weak and slim and dem sores. Open sores all over he face, he wholes body. It gots to de place where he can't eat no mo! with dem sores in he mouf. Lordie, we be almost to scared ta touch he. Doc up in Alicetown scared, too."
"Oh my God," Travis cried, tears rolling down his cheeks. "He went back there to die, didn’t he? Dammit." He gritted his teeth. "What a fool I've been." He stared into space furiously, pulling his hair and cursing God under his breath. He didn't hear Tyrone's desperate stutters anymore. "I gotta go, Tyrone. I can't talk now. But thanks much, buddy. Thank you..." He hung up the phone, shaken and frozen to the spot.
Then it struck, the painful aching, the burning misery. Long guttural wails echoed from his mouth as he screamed out his sorrow. The pain wouldn't ease. He caught a terrific chill thinking about it and smashed the mirror he had used to line cocaine, and then the lamp, leaving him weeping in the shadows of a dying fire.
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Three years later in San Francisco on the first of November, Abel Erikson folded his hairy arms across his chest and sighed wearily. He was older, alone and lonely, uninterested in drifting fog smothering the city below Pemberton steps. Turning around he stared at two decanters, one full of gin, the other brandy on the sideboard. He wiped his brow. No one around. He pulled his fingers through his hair and smiled tentatively. He could really do it, could pretend to fool even himself. Across the room he readied gin and vermouth in a shaker, drained it carefully over crushed ice and shook the shaker vigorously. He grabbed a glass, his right cheek twitching as he filled the glass with alcohol, two olives on a toothpick and abruptly lifted it to his mouth.
Once upon a time, he could drink until he was literally blue in the face. There were no hangovers then, no problems. Now, he went to therapy and made special appearances at AA meetings upon his therapist's suggestion. He hated the meetings, having to sit there in that melancholy room, half listening to their stories, thinking he wasn't as far gone as those people. Drinking out of control and waking up in a gutter was not something he had in common with any of them.
He looked dubiously up at the ceiling and closed his eyes admitting he was powerless over alcohol-that his life had become unmanageable. The second step he whispered his eyes popping open at mid-sentence hearing her coming up the hall. He screamed silently and poured the drink down the drain.
There in the doorway with snow-white hair erect like an electric bush and a beige gown clinging unnaturally making her look naked she gasped looking up at the chandelier and switched out the light.
"Farchrisake," Abel commanded. "Turn that light back on, now."
"Ahab," the woman cried clicking the switch and, squinting, saw it was not Ahab.
"That’s right, it is I. The other you so ardently hate.”
"I don't hate you so much,” she blurted out and her throat was very dry and she coughed to clear it.
"Why I’m flattered," replied Abel. "Now, be a good girl and go back to your room.”
“How dare you speak to me in that manner. I’m your mother.”
“Yes, let’s not forget your maternal devotion that's neither here nor there. Now, get the hell out.”
"Why must you belittle me all the time?"
"Because you're a simpleton. Is that not a simple truth?"
“I am not some simpleminded crone. I get an allowance every month, young fellow. Ahab deposits in the bank what I allocate to take care of this house-."
"Ahab made those deposits of your measly pennies into his own personal account right down to your last nickel.”
"Ahab wouldn't have.”
“He would have let this house foreclose from right under your nose-"
"Why must you make up filthy lies?"
"I just can't get it.” He threw his hands up in the air helplessly."After all the miserable years you've spent with Ahab, you still insist defending him against me when it was Ahab who defrauded you."
"I'll get Ahab. He'll speak the truth."
”You’ll have to go all the way to 6th Street to find him .”
“I don’t understand.”
“Of course not. Let me remind you. He’s been evicted to never set foot in this house again. He's living in a SRO on 6th Street."
The thought of Ahab being evicted had never actually occurred to her. It seemed so remote. Finally, some truth of Ahab’s eviction sank temporally. She couldn’t remember exactly where 6th Street was or this SRO, but the thought of 6th Street and a SRO didn’t sound good; this especially worried her and she felt helpless, sick about it. "Ahab can't be gone," she snapped. "He simply can't be. Why would you evict him? Your own brother? It was because of her, wasn’t it? That woman?"
"Why mother," Abel said, "you are that woman."
She backed up, started to leave, then stopped. "I don't hate you so much," she said.
"Get out or shall I remove you with my own hands? Dearest mother, you wouldn't prefer that..."
"All right,” she said with sudden vivacity. "I am leaving...now." She made her way down the hall feeling her hands along the wall like a blind woman. With a look of disdain she sucked-in her teeth, shuffled into her room and mustered enough strength to slam the door.
"Wretched bitch!" he said gritting his teeth. And the thing in his boxer short pulsated ready to explode. Effortlessly he touched it, biting his bottom lip until he tasted blood, then burst into naughty laughter and hugging himself in his arms like a lover.
The front door banged open downstairs. Footsteps pounded, rushing up. Abel tucked the bloody cloth into his pocket, squirted club soda into a glass and rushed over to the sofa.
"Darling, I’m home," came the boy's breathless voice from in the doorway.
His boy had come safely home. He wouldn't complain or question him about his day. Besides, he had argued long enough with Zelta, his scraggly mother, about those goddamn cats. That had exhausted him. "Well, don't just stand there,” he said wiping his eyes. "Come on in my boy."
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It was three years earlier the 21st night of November when they met on the Battery. The moon was full, and a half-dozen boys partially swaddled in unsuitable summer coats shivered against the seawall looking for Mr. Right. Abel Erikson was one of those Mr. Rights looking to meet none of them save a well-hung black boy capable of making him scream “Jesus”, “Yes, Lord…”
“Do you have a light?” he said with a cigarette cocked at the corner of his mouth as he approached the one black boy there with an overstuffed backpack by his feet.
“Sure,” the boy said striking a match and, in the flame, he saw that Abel's eyes were hazel like the color of algae murky pond water. He shook the firelight out and backed up.
Abel stared at the boy who wasn’t necessarily skinny but full-bodied like a strong field hand. He carried himself well in cheap baggy clothes Abel prayed were surely just baggy but undeniably dirt cheap. No, he didn't look fat at all. “Cold out, don't you think?" he said as smoke billowed from his mouth.
“Yes,” the boy said mashing his cig butt out with the tip of his boot and, studying his boot, the boy blushed recalling his used boots as they were had seen better days.
“What are you looking for?” Abel said.
“I’m looking for you,” the boy said.
“My car is parked up the street. Would you like to go there and warm up?”
“What kind of car?”
“A Mercedes. A dusty kind of red with soft leather seats. Very comfortable.”
"Of course," the boy smiled.
Inside the car, the boy offered a stale can of malt liquor beer pulled from his backpack, and they shared it along with one cigarette. As the moon rose higher in the black sky changing into a dazzling white, Abel leaned over and kissed the boy on the mouth and felt himself sinking, slipping into the torn leather seat, losing control and wanting it.
This kiss, the helpless way it made him feel, captivated him so, leaving him no hint of the dark machinations yet to come, no hint of the relentless downhill spiral . . .
Zeno stretched out his long legs underneath the coffee table and lifted his arms high in the air above his head as long and hard as he could reach until he felt his spine crack and, all over, he tingled with relief. He smiled at a distant memory. The memory of a man he had recently known. Every thought of him delighting his senses.
It was raining with the view of the city hazy and gray. Gradually, his concentration returned. He got back to working on a portfolio of his artwork. The wind had picked up and the rain fell harder by the time Zelta came through the French doors and into the living room gasping with every shuffling step.
In one hand she carried a bag of M&M candies, the other a glass filled with a milkshake. Ceto, the short-hair black cat Zelta always called Blackey, followed in tow with a gay erect tail.
Zeno was about to say good morning but hesitated after seeing pale lipstick shaping her small mouth and soft earth shadow and rouge painting her chalky complexion giving her cheeks an unnatural glow. Her snow-white hair was untangled and brushed neatly into place. She wore a clean blue velvet gown with a flower embroidery knitted above the breast, a striking improvement over the drab flesh-colored robe she had worn previously. He couldn't believe it was the same woman who had managed to look so miserable only a few days ago.
This change, he thought to himself and almost laughed out loud, would horrify Abel upon his return from Charleston.
"How are you today, Mrs. Erikson?" he finally said after she settled into her favorite armchair with a high back and a small fluffy pillow. The chair was closest to a floor lamp and off to the side of the white fireplace mantel with a ticking antique clock and Abel's portrait focused above the fireplace.
"Just fine, young fellow,” she said haughtily. “Thank you," she added and Zeno looked away from her and she placed the glass down on the side table and centered the bag of M&Ms in her lap. "Where is Rosa?" she said looking anxiously around the room.
"Rosa won't be in until the afternoon,” he glimpsed at her and continued his work. “She has a doctor’s appointment. That’s why she's late."
"I hope she'll be all right.”
"She’ll be fine⎯I’m sure."
She reached for the glass with a plastic straw anchored at the top and lifted it to her mouth and, staring straight ahead into a downpour of rain dripping down the terrace glass, she parted her lips and sucked. The sound of sucking and then wheezing startled Ceto, the black cat, underneath the chair and it scouted out between her feet. She got only a glimpse of the cat vanished through the open French doors. She put the glass back down on the table and fidgeted with the seal of the M&Ms until she tore it open violently in her lap. Like a child, she picked out the red and yellow candies and popped first the reds, then the yellows into her mouth and chewed ravenously.
The French doors from the hall into the living room were wide open. This worried her more than the cat always chasing after Thamaus, the other cat, she called Blondie. She sucked in her teeth and thought of Ahab, the second son, expecting he would come rushing through the door into the room at any moment raging about wasted heat being let out into the hall and the bill sky high. Ahab was always complaining about money he never seems to have and needed to buy items she suspected were no good. She leaned forward with her elbows pressing into her thighs and peered at Zeno. She wished he would stop with that picture book right now, get up off of that floor and shut the door before Ahab burst in or that other one (Abel, her first son) returned like hurricane Hazel. Without either of them around the house was calmer. She liked it that way.
She popped more candies into her mouth and thought about the milkshake and how good it had been⎯and how much better it had tasted than the first ones Ahab had made. He had told her Dr. Abagtha prescribed shakes especially for her diet, which was all he ever gave for breakfast, lunch, and dinner along with M&Ms on the side. All this saved on grocery bills and provided more funds for Ahab’s pleasure. "The milkshake was another good one,” she blurted out loud. “Was it you, Rosa or that nurse who made it for me?”
"It was I. Nurse Wilma Hope is out of town. I hope you like strawberry?"
"I love strawberry. It's a good flavor. The milkshake is best I've ever had. I thank you very much."
In the palm of her right hand that was whiter than a sheet, she stared at chocolate candies thinking she had never lived with a Negro before. She consumed the candies until dark chocolate melted down her throat. She swallowed remembering a time when a Negro fellow of any complexion not of white people purity wasn’t allowed to sit alone in the same room with a white woman or even look at her, else he could be lynched or tied down to a stone to drown at the bottom of a creek because his color was wrong...evil. But this one, this young fellow, wasn't evil, wasn’t terribly bad looking. In fact, he didn’t look particularly ethnic of any sort, African or Middle Eastern, and he was handsome and hadn't stolen anything from them. He didn't curse in front of her and didn't have body odor.
Abel certainly appreciated him sniffing behind him like a hound dog. She certainly liked the way he made her shakes. They were the very best. Couldn’t his name very well be Blackey like her cat’s name? He was dark-skin with pretty black skin like Mario’s deep brown skin, her Cuban house gardener from a long time ago in Charleston. Sometimes, she called Mario by his nickname, Blackey. This young fellow’s nickname could be Blackey, too, like Mario. Why she, herself, even had a nickname as a girl given to her by her father. Her father called her Knut short for Peanut because she was his little peanut all of his life.
"I forget your name young fellow,” she said. “What is it again?"
"My name is Zeno. Zeno Elliott"
"Zeno Elliott...” She pondered his first name silently for a long moment.
"Is it with a `Z' like in my own?" She liked his name.
"Yes, it is."
"Well isn't that something. A `Z' like in my name. My name is Zelta, you know with a `Z' as well. Only you’re a handsome young fellow. I'm an old lady no longer so beautiful."
"But I think you are beautiful, Mrs. Erikson. You're an absolute doll."
"I was very beautiful a long time ago,” she grinned remembering horseback riding right by the ocean in Fort Bragg and she smiled and noticed Zeno had stopped fumbling with the picture book and was looking at her with shiny eyes. She blushed like a young courting girl or swore she could have blushed, which was improbable at her age. “Have you not seen the pictures when I was a young woman?”
“Abel has shown them to me. Yes, you were more beautiful than Marilyn Monroe with striking blonde hair down to your shoulders.” And perky breasts he didn’t tell her and smiled remembering the size of Zelta’s breast in a tight fitted sweater in one black and white photograph, and she was radiant like a movie star.
“That was a very long time ago,” she laughed and so did he. Though he didn’t know why he was laughing she was laughing and happy and that made him laugh more because she was so happy and no longer sad.
The telephone rang out in the hall. Zeno placed his portfolio on the table and, still amused by Zelta’s gaiety, got up to go answer the phone.
"So what's new besides your sleeping in until noon every day?" Abel teased him over the line.
"I haven't slept in until noon. Not a single day since you departed for Charleston."
"Have you been painting?"
"Then what have you been doing?"
"I photographed my latest artwork for a new portfolio I'm making. You'll like it. Besides, there's not much else to do here in the rain."
"How long has it been raining?"
"Nonstop all week."
"I hope you didn't forget to pack your rain gear?"
"Actually, I did forget since I thought it never rained in California."
"Well, it does rain in California, my boy. But don't fret; I left enough petty cash in the top drawer of my desk for both you and mother or you can always use one of your cards. Purchase what you or mother might need. How is the mother by the way?"
"Mrs. Erikson is jollier than ever. In fact, you'll be amazed whenever you see her."
"Amazed?” Abel sounded with a tinge of alarm. “What wickedness has she concocted now?"
"Nothing wicked. I'd say it's a change for the better. Would you like to speak to her?"
"That would be most disconcerting, my boy. Don’t be ridiculous.”
"Then how are lofty old Charleston and the gallery?"
"Charleston is all right. As for the gallery I am most impressed with Marcel’s accomplishment. Gallery attendance is up and sales have exceeded my expectation. She's an excellent curator and friend. I trust this woman with my life."
"How is Matthew?”
Any mention of Matthew Rae exasperated Abel and he was breathing hard into the phone when he said, "I've been meaning to tell you all about Matthew Rae."
Zeno’s heart skipped. "He is still working there in the warehouse?"
"Matthew was let go."
"Yes, as in terminated."
"You fired Matthew? But why Abel?"
"Matthew was not only insubordinate but he is white-trash scum. Furthermore, he's a thief. I'm grateful that Dale Savage is so efficient in keeping the books, else Matthew would have gotten away clean-free with thievery."
"Matthew, a thief? I can't believe that. Matthew is not a thief. There must be some kind of mistake. Something Dale did to-"
"Matthew Rae stole from the gallery. It's as simple as that. I have filed criminal charges with the Charleston PD and a warrant has been issued for his arrest-"
"Matthew could go to jail?"
"Matthew will go to prison if I don't destroy him beforehand for what he’s done.”
“What has he actually done, Abel?”
“More than you’ll ever know.”
“What do you mean?”
“Listen, I didn't call home to quarrel or discuss Matthew Rae. I don't really care where he is...except he's out of my life, out of your life, out of both of our lives. I simply called to check in and make sure everything is satisfactory for both you and mother."
"Everything is O.K.,” Zeno said slowly.
"Try not to sound so ecstatic about it, will you?"
"Matthew was like family, Abel. My only connection to my past and the island-"
"Matthew Rae was a lot of other things and part of a past on a backward country island you never gave as much of a goddamn about then, you still don’t now, you never will care and you know it." Abel paused listening to the sound of his breathing on the phone and he got a warm feeling thinking so much about him. "Zeno...” he continued.
“Let’s not argue anymore.”
“I’ve missed you every single day since I've been away...I'd be the happiest man in the universe when I’ve found the right person to run JeE; then we can spend more time together. Just you and I. We can go back to Rome if desire, New York or Venice is so nice right now in November without all the tourists. I love you so much, Zeno, that sometimes it scares me that I could love anyone as much as I love you-"
"Sir, can't we talk about all of this later in person when you’ve come home? There's so much we need to talk about. So much I have to tell you."
"Then we'll talk on Monday. I'll be home late Sunday night. You'll probably be asleep."
"Then Monday. We'll see each other then."
"Yes, Monday. I love you, Zeno Elliott," he whispered from the bottom of his heart, "don't ever forget that."
"Thank you," Zeno whispered back and quickly told Abel good-bye and hung up the phone.
For a long while, he stood in the hall, shaken with memories of Matthew Rae. He knew he could not continue protecting Matthew from Abel's rage without jeopardizing himself and/or losing everything. Perhaps it wouldn't be so terrible if Matthew were caught, arrested, carted off to prison, never to interfere in his life again. There could be only peace with Matthew imprisoned 3,000 miles away.
He started back into the living room where Zelta waited with a silly grin on her face. "That was Abel on the phone," he told her from in the doorway. "He asked about you."
Zelta felt a sudden draft in the room from his shadow and she reached for her shawl on the arm of the chair. She pulled it over her shoulders and stared out the window at the rain beating on the terrace.
Zeno heard footsteps. He turned around and was relieved to see Rosa coming in. Rosa had more patience with Zelta unlike Nurse Hope and especially Abel.
"Is the senora up and about?" Rosa said in a thick Spanish accent.
Zeno looked again at Zelta. So gaunt and tiny in the armchair and it was raining harder. He pulled the doors shut. "She's there in the living room,” he said to Rosa. “We were talking and having a good time until I came out to get the phone. Abel called from Charleston. After I hung up, I told her he asked about her. She turned away as if she didn’t even know me anymore..."
Rosa did a sign of the cross and muttered something in Spanish. "Senora so afraid of the senor, si?"
"I don't understand the reason."
"Maybe it is best you do not know the reason."
"Then you know why there's so much friction between Abel and Mrs. Erikson? Of course, you must know. How long has it been since you were housekeeping here?"
"I’ve been domestic in this house ever since I left my people in Nicaragua four years ago," she said, holding up four fingers as if to double-check her own shaky account of when she first came to America. "I don't know why they argue all the time and hate each other so. I was in the house the day the senor evicted that brother. It was a terrible day like a nightmare. The police came. I so afraid because I do not have all of my papers. I hid in the basement until the house was silent."
"Then you knew Ahab Erikson?"
"I not know him long enough," she said crossing her breasts again. "I not say much to him when I come do the cleaning. He was not nice to me. Always looking at me with the funny eye." She smiled as she spilled out of her blue plastic raincoat.
Zeno blushed and was unable to remember her uniform being that snug before on her plump figure.
She swished over to the closet and removed her rain-cap and hung it up along with her coat. "I go see about the senora now," she looked at him with black penetrating eyes. "You gonna paint me a pretty picture today, senor?"
"I'm not painting anything today," he glimpsed up at the skylight and the rain was coming down like buckets of water hitting the glass.
"Then what you to do today?"
"I'm going upstairs and watch television. I am in need of a distraction.”
"You so young, so handsome, senor. Surely, you find better way to distract yourself than television. Television, like they say in this country, is bubble gum for the eye, si?"
"But I like chewing bubble gum once in a while, Rosa. It keeps me from getting carried away."
"You get carried away easy, si?"
"Let’s just say that when the moon is full, Rosa, there are a very few things I would not try for the hell of it."
“I saw the moon last night above Coit Tower,” Rosa said feeling a fervent sensation in her heart, and she blushed. “It is very full moon.”
"Yup," Zeno nodded and turned and left.
Rosa leaned her shoulder against the door watching him until he disappeared up the spiral stairs and into the master bedroom on the top floor. All the while she waited to wonder why Zeno insisted on wasting his time with the zancarrón anyway? Abel was a rich senor but a no good-for-nothing diablo!
Eagerly she waited in secret to bestow her passion upon the trueno who would soon know that she was truly worthy of his affection. And in return, unlike senor Abel, who had broken all of his promises, Zeno would ask her to be his senora and make her legal...